Main Kya Hoon Main Kya Yeh Batalao

Kabhi socha aapne kaun ho aap?
Kabhi socha kya hai hamara kaam??
Nahi socha toh socho ab..
Nahi toh phir sochoge kab?????


From Few days I have been facing a big problem. What am I supposed to do? For whom I am supposed to do? Why am I supposed to do whatever I am doing?

Kaun hu mei kahan se aaya,
Kya mei apne saath kuch laya??
Kiske liye mei karu yeh sab,
Mujhe milega inka jawab kab?

The situation can be compared to the one of Arjun in the Kurukshetra battlefield. The only difference is Arjun had Krishna to answer all his questions but who shall answer my questions?

Kaun karta hai mujhse yeh vada,
Nahi rehne dega mujhe ab aur pareshan.
Jawab dega kaun mere sawalon ka,
Karega vo mere har pareshani ka samadhan.

Is life my own ?
Are my dreams my own?
Are my target my own?
Are my parameters of success my own?
Are my thoughts my own?
Are my actions my own?
There are infinite such "Are".
Are they my own or others drive them???

Kaun nahi hote mere khwab apne?
Kyun nahi hote mere lakshya apne?
Kyun nahi hote mere vichar apne?
Kya yahi zindagi di hai rab ne???

I searched answers on my own and got the results. True life is the life lived for the others. The aim of life has to be the happiness of others. The target has to be to make everyone happy. Dream has to be the stage of salvation.

This all reminds me few lines of a song from the recent movie Love Aaj Kal.
Aab Jana Main Ne Jeena Kya Hai
Kya Hai Pura Hona Khwaab Ka
Aab Dekhon Na Woh Sochu Na Woh
Jo Bhi Yahan Na Ho Khwaab Sa

All this reminds me my first post "Meri Zindagi" as well.

Zindagi nahi mili hai humme khud ke liye,
Zindagi wahi jo jiye hum auron ke liye.
Doosro ki khushi mei apni khushi hai,
Yahi zindagi ka ek matra satya hai....

Mera pehla pehle pyar

Mallika-E-Husn koi kudrat ka karishma thi vo,
Jisse maine chaha mera Mera Pehle Pyar thi vo.
Nahi thi koi kami hamare pyar mei uske liye,
Par phir bhi nahi ho saki hamari vo Ae khuda kisliye????????

Just as I was about to write the next lines a simple question came to my mind.
Here are few lines by Lata Mangeshkarji felicitously putting the same.

Dil apna aur preet parayi,
Kisne hai yeh reet banayi.
Andhi ne ek deep jalaya,
Aur pani ne aag lagayi.

Kyun hota hai aisa ki dil ho hamara,
Aur khele tode usse koi aur anjana.
Kab badlegi kudrat ki yeh reet,
Jab hogi humme khud se hi preet.

Moving forward Hey God!!!Y you gave us just a single heart..And if u gave us one heart only y made it so sensitive..And y can it only love one at a moment and not more???

Sab kuch milta hai yahan hai duniya ek bazaar,
Dil hai ek aur pyar karne ko ladkiyan hazaar..
Waise pyar soch kar nahi hota bas ho jata hai,
aur yaadein zindagi bhar ke liye chod jata hai..

Even when I look back in my life I m not able to figure out when she came jogging in the heart n went away running from life leaving marks on the heart...

Vo bhi ajab samma tha jab mujhe vo dikhi thi,
Vo bhi gajab waqt tha jab vo mujhe roz milti thi..
Ab toh bas yaadein aur yaadein hi reh gayi hai,
naa jaane meri zindagi mujhse dur kahan chali gayi hai..

But I also thank God...U made heart such that it moves forward and starts loving again. N now again I m in love but this tym with the self. After all dil aur pyar apna hai toh kisi aur ko dene ki bajay khud hi naa rakh le...

Akhir kyun karu mei kisi aur se pyar,
Kyun kare hum kisi aur bewafa se deedar..
Yeh toh hona hi tha ek din kabhi zindagi mei,
Ab toh mere dil ko aata pyar mujh par hi hai..

So finally, mera pyar mujhe mil gaya...

Humme phir se ho gaya hai pyar,
Mat poocho kis se hua hai pyar.
Phir se hua humme kisi ka deedar,
Abke bas gaye hai hum khud ke hi yaar...

Hum bhi karne lage hai ab khud se pyar,
Ab toh rahegi hamesha jeevan mei bahaar..
Ab badalne lagi hai hamari zindagi,
Aur badhti hi jaa rahi hai pal pal yeh deewangi....

Gudbye ******!!!!
I have now someone else to love..

Unki yaad se bahut pareshan the hum,
aaj unhe dil se hata kar hi liya hai humne dum..
Khush hai aaj hum bahut apne is dil ke naye pravasi se,
Kyunki ab koi nahi de sakta dhoka humme zindagi mei..